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19 more days of school remain!

I can't believe my first year of teaching is almost over.  Time literally flies!

I am beyond excited for the summer, however, I almost want time to slow down.  I know after this summer ends, reality is really going to set in.  I was trying to explain it to a friend earlier this week...but so much is changing.  Not that there haven't been a lot of changes already, but what's coming in the next year seriously feels like the next stage of growing up.

Of course, graduating in itself was a milestone and beginning my first year of teaching was a big change.  However, this being the first year in the "working world," it was very much a transition year.  A testing the waters period of time.  Meaning...it was a time for learning, constant adjustment, redefining myself, becoming familiar with my surroundings.  Seeing what works, what doesn't work, what I love, what I hate...etc.  I feel like this next cycle will call for more consistency and commitment.  In short...being an actual adult!  I can't play the "it's my first year," or "it's my first time," or "I'm new..." card any longer.  Not that I typically make excuses, but still...I guess I"m just realizing this next year will be requiring me to discipline myself more and accept the positive changes that are coming ahead.

Reflecting on this past year...my situation was perfect.  I live 10 minutes from one of my best friends from college; 30 minutes from two of my best female friends, and live and work closely to my job.  It's been such a cushioned experience for a first year out of college.  Surrounded by friends, not far from family, good job and sweet students...it's been like the perfect mix of growing into an adult and enjoying my single-dom in my twenties!

Now, it makes me nervous.  Some of my closest friends will be moving away to continue pursuing their own journeys and future successes.  While I'm beyond excited for their futures and new opportunities, part of me knows this will mean more change.  Change can be good, but it's almost like this moment is ending too soon.  I know with the changes and moving I'll be seeing less of my closest friends and relationships may waiver.  And as more things change and I get older and see more, it's uneasy to go forward.  But I guess I just have to remember that while there are things in the future that I don't necessarily like, that I must add a positive energy to allow for the best to come.

I'm honestly just rambling, but I guess it would be nice to go back in time for a little bit.

The year is soon and I'm already wracking my brain for next year.  These last few weeks of May leading into June are going to be incredibly busy!  EOGs, weddings, meetings, etc...  I can make it through...if only for summer!  I know next year will be great....I have sweet students, incredible friends and family, and so many memories and experiences to carry with me.  As long as I keep the positive support and people around me leading into next year, I know I'll be fine.  I think at the same time, in a different kind of way, it's okay to hold close to the way things were.